in the corners of my heart

Isn't it with very great difficulties that we make new relations? Imagine a situation where you have to go to a college thousands of kilometers away from home leaving behind your parents, family and importantly your friends with whom you have spent all your childhood days. In reality it is way more difficult to adjust with than it really sounds. feels so alien! isolated! every one in a search of probable friends, judging and evaluating new faces on various criteria. every action and movement is watched and valued.

after watching and judging for quite long we finally end up with few faces who we tag as our friends and then we have our gang! sticking together for most of our times..eating, shopping, fun, fights, gossips and even selecting best porn for download!! with time we become so open nothing is a secret..everyone knows everything..personal problems, crushes, expectations, ambitions nothing remains our own..becomes quite open amongst the members of our gang. but wait! if you expect something good..these people would be the ones who would make fun of these over delicate matters and leave you both irritated and all in smiles. your moment of utmost embarrassment would be the biggest joke to them. but yes, if someone else dares to touch that wire God only can save the ordeal destined for him. slowly, as days pass by the sorrow of not having your family by your side in such an alien city becomes actually a blessing in disguise and the 'alien' city at once becomes a heaven where we can do anything we want to. there is no one to stop. but did the city change? actually not! we together made a different prospective about the city and now its all fun place for us.

but yet again..isn't it with very great difficulties that we had made all these strangers the keepers of our best kept secrets of life? imagine a situation when all these guys have left and one of them is left behind. for all others the place changes so they can easily undergo the same process of scanning and befriending new faces but, how about the one left behind? even he has to undergo the same procedure but the same place keeps him glued to the memories and never let him move forward. its like being nailed in one finger and he rest of your body trying to move forward...either you stay at the same place drenching yourself in your own tears expecting the best from life or keeping the effort of moving ahead. either ways it hurts you. is there any way to cut down the pain? sometimes a change actually takes a part of you away and you have to undergo the whole process of regeneration once again.